Et Lux In Tenebris Lucet (And the Light Shineth in the Darkness) by Enigmaticblue

Reviews (8)Rating: PG-13

Summary: Spoilers for "The Gift" and S6. Spike manages to save Dawn, but pays a terribly high price. Will he be able to find meaning in his suffering?

Author's Notes: The title and some of the philosophy behind this story comes from Viktor Frankl's book Man's Search for Meaning, a must-read if you haven't already. In any case, it's basically about the importance of finding meaning in our suffering, since that's the only way we can avoid giving into despair. On a side-note, not everything in this story may be physically possible. But I didn't have Spike to experiment on, so you'll just have to take it as a plot device and leave it at that. As always, thanks and love to my beta, Heather.


This story is complete.

Chapter 1: A Broken Body
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Chapter 2: Living and Not Living
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Chapter 3: Unlife
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Chapter 4: Poker Face
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Chapter Notes: Just a short one. Ever wonder what Spike does when he's not hanging around Buffy? Well, here's an idea...

Chapter 5: Drinking Buddies
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Chapter 6: Teen Woes
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Chapter 7: And Again with the Music
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Chapter Notes: I had to fiddle with the lyrics, and for that I'm sorry. Joss is a much better lyricist than I am. Since I admitted it, though, you all don't have to be too hard on me, right?

Chapter 8: Wiping the Slate
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Chapter 9: A Gentle Touch
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Chapter 10: A Harsh Reality
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Chapter 11: Disappearing Act
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Chapter 12: Money Woes
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Chapter 13: Life Spring
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Chapter 14: Life of the Party
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Chapter 15: Kindred Spirits
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Chapter 16: Altar Call
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Chapter 17: A State of Mind
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Chapter 18: Bonds
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Chapter 19: The Death of Innocence
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Chapter 20: The End of It All
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Epilogue 1: Stay
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Chapter Notes: So here it is: the epilogue and the end of the story I'm sure you've all been waiting for. As you'll notice, there are two possible endings. As I was writing this story, I found myself completely certain of Spike, but not so much of Buffy. Would she let him stay, or would she ask him to go? And as I considered, I came up with two distinctly different possibilities. Anyway, take your pick as to which one you like better. I'm still not sure.

Epilogue 2: Boomerang
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